A few days ago, my husband told me he wanted us to have another baby. It was an absolute no when he said it, but we’ve been talking about it and now I’m not so sure. It’s scary, terrifying really, but also kind of exciting. And I always wanted Jasper to have a sibling. I just didn’t want another baby. Kids-yes, baby-no. There are soooo many mixed emotions. I want it but I don’t. I’m scared but also thrilled. I don’t know.
I think I’m scared to actually want it.
I guess we will see where life leads us.
That moment your son is old enough to pick out his own Halloween costume.
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I just googled that and oh my goodness, it’s beautiful!! I have to go there next weekend- I really do need that fall fix. Thanks for the help!
This heat, I swear. It’s the middle of October and it’s still 90 degrees. And everything is just green. I miss beautiful, colorful, fall leaves and crisp, cool weather. I want the cold and dreary- not hot and sunny! If I never saw another overly bright and sunny, sweltering day, I would be just fine. I want my husband to get stationed at Fort Drum so badly, it’s almost desperation. Hopefully, come March, we will get the good news! These fingers are permanently crossed.
happy you got some good news about Jasper! i must say, he is one adorable little thing. his hair is gorgeous!
Thank you so much, sweet anon!
I had another meeting with the school principal today because of this little troublemaker. Only, for once, it was a meeting for something VERY good! Since the beginning of the school year, the principal, guidance counselors, and his teacher have been keeping a close eye on him and working with him one on one due to his behavior. Because of all that observation and all the conversations and stuff, they found out that he is quite smart. She told me the more they worked with him, the more he amazed them. The teacher for the gifted and talented program was brought in today to speak with him and he said Jasper is extraordinarily intelligent and he hasn’t had a child that smart in years! He can’t officially be tested and entered into the program until next year because he’s not yet in Kindergarten, but the principal said that he will definitely be in and the gifted teacher is very excited to be able to work with him next year. I’m so joyful and proud of my baby! I’ve had nothing but bad news and grief since school started so it’s such a blessing to get such happy news for once! Yay, Jasper!
I took a week long break from all internet and social anything. I have been feeling like I’m so close to a breakdown and I couldn’t deal with anything but home. Jasper has been causing such mayhem at school, I have already had three meetings and letters home every day. No matter what I say and do, no matter what the teacher says and does, he won’t just be good. And what gets me is that he is so good, so sweet, and so well behaved at home. He listens the first time I say anything, he never throws tantrums, never once has he hit or bit or anything like that. They tell me he has been closely watched by the counselors and he is a highly intelligent child, more so than any other preKindergartener, but he uses his intelligence to charm and manipulate. He’s bossy and overly chatty and wants all the attention and throws tantrums and just… could it get any worse? BUT the counselor assures me that kids like him just need more time to adjust, and surely his behavior will improve later into the school year. He is a different child at home so it’s difficult to know what to do to help him at school. And I’m beginning to think the counselor may be doing more harm than good. She suggested cutting Jasper’s hair as punishment and telling him big boys need big boy hair cuts. I shut her down immediately on that. I guess that is the only bad suggestion she has given, though, so I shouldn’t say she is doing more harm than good. All of this is too much. It’s exhausting even typing about this. I love my sweet boy more than anything and only want the best for him. I’ve been talking with him every single day, several times a day, and I’m hoping beyond hope that it sinks in. This was a long and pretty disorganized post. I hesitate to post it, but whatever.
I will always roll my eyes at the parents who STILL cry at school drop off in the mornings, and then talk about it on facebook like it makes them a better parent because they care more. Get a life.
I will, though. Today was just awful. Jasper loves school so much, and because I hadn’t gotten any bad news, I had assumed he was doing great. No. His teacher called early this afternoon to let me know that my child is the ringleader of trouble in his class. He’s super boisterous and loud and very outgoing, that’s his personality. But apparently, his personality is leading the other children to try to follow his example and when the children are supposed to be still and quiet, which is rare in pre-K, he is trying to make the other kids laugh and sing and do silly things- and they do. She told me that he is smart and he already knows everything they should know at the end of the year, and it may be that he is bored. I just don’t think that’s it, though, because they do fun things like gym and crafts and library and even though he already knows what she is teaching, I feel like he has so much fun there. That’s what he tells me, anyway. I really feel like it’s just how he is all the time and he will learn with age. I’m just so embarrassed that I have the “bad” kid in class. It makes me want to cry just typing that. Matt and I had a conversation with him this evening and hopefully it sticks. This is breaking my heart.
I really need to update this blog. I’m pretty sure I have a big one coming! So much to talk about, so little time.
I don’t mean to disgust you, but this is what my arm currently looks like. Actually, my entire body, face included, looks like that right now. It burns and itches like you couldn’t imagine- I’m about to rip my skin off. I can even feel it on my scalp. The doctor said it’s a severe case of hives and could possibly last up to six weeks or TWENTY FREAKING YEARS, and we will just have to wait and see. Nothing helps it. The Benadryl did nothing but knock me out and the oatmeal lotion is a joke. It hurts and itches like crazy and I can’t live like this. Not only does it feel horrible, but I look like a monster. How can I walk my baby to and from school like this? How can I show my face? This cannot be happening.
Jasper’s meet the teacher night is the day after tomorrow. We are so excited!
It’s always nice to see facebook videos of my friends’ kids dancing in the backseat of a car and being all cute, with no seat belt on. One of these kids is only three with no car seat or booster to speak of. I was hesitant to speak up, but I did because if they got into a wreck, something horrible would happen to those children. I sent a private message to the one who posted the video (a girl I have been friends with for years) and told her that I’m not trying to intrude on her life, but I saw the video of the kids in a moving car with no seat belts on or car seats and I let her know how dangerous that was for them, and I know that she would never want the kids to be hurt. You know what I got back?
"Hey, I really don’t like other people telling me how to raise my kids and neither does Sarah. I’m not gonna get into a wreck. We are great moms and don’t need you sticking your nose in our business. Our kids are perfect, thanks."
And then she blocked me. Forgive me for trying to help keep your kids safe. That will be the last time I try to help somebody like that. Whatever, I’m really not trying to deal with this right now.